My asthma is OUT OF CONTROL!!
Anyone else out there having issues? First, I didn’t get asthma until last year. Chronic Asthma was the diagnosis. I didn’t know one could develop it. I had always heard that people “grew out of it” not “grew into it”. Imagine my shock.
Ok so there is an inhaler and some meds. Great! I’m already taking a daily pharmacy of meds now let’s just add some more. Here’s the problem. They are not working. For the most part, my asthma is manageable. But when it isn’t… OMG.
My experience recently has been way over the top.
Example: past few weeks I’ve noticed I’m coughing more everyday. But ok I can live with that. The weather here is changing … getting colder which is probably affecting my asthma.
However…. when you can’t laugh, talk or breathe without spams upon spasms of coughing and gasping for air… it’s over. In a recent experience of coughing I started throwing up.. now I can’t breathe, and am throwing up… Seriously? This can’t be life.
At one point I found myself holding on to the edge of the bed. To anchor myself while trying desperately to breathe. What’s worse, once this starts I’m in a constant continuous cycle until my inhaler kicks in. My inhaler doesn’t always work instantly. And this particular instance was one of those times.
I’m not complaining. I’m just coming off of a night of a sever attack. I’m exhausted tonight due to lack of sleep from last night. I’m afraid to laugh or breathe too deeply as that triggers my asthma. Again… this can’t be life.
I’m only talking about my experience with asthma… the meds and the cost for “maintenance meds” is life changing. For someone who takes meds for PTSD… adding the cost for asthma medication it’s excruciatingly expensive just to stay alive. Choices should not come down to being emotionally well vs breathing… seriously is this really a choice?
My choice right now is to be emotionally better. Breathing? Yes it’s important, but if one can’t function emotionally, breathing won’t be important anyway.
January is coming, health benefits recycle, and I can get a new inhaler and some breathing treatments.
Hang in there I tell myself. Breathe not so deeply. DONT laugh and whatever you do try not to cough for any reason…
Anyone out there struggling to deal with asthma? Any advice? I’m open to what others are doing to manage their asthma…
thank you in advance for sharing your experience with me.