Communication and devices we have used has changed over the last 40 years. From handwritten letters mailed to each other, to phones connected to the wall outlet, to cell phones the size of a book bag, to cell phones small enough to fit in your pocket and are with you 24 hrs a day.
In letter writing days, some of the most enjoyable, authentic, heart felt letters were written. Before phones this was the only way to communicate long distance. My Aunts who were raised with a phone back then wrote pages and pages of letters rather than call. The great thing about that, is their letters remained and could be passed down through generations. Don’t get me started about their penmanship. Awesome! Beautiful words of art!
Fast forward thru the technology, and the fact that letter communication has basically died, we arrive at emojis! Hieroglyphs is back but now we call them emojis😂.
Communication in emojis leaves much to be desired as it leaves the reader to fill in specifics. Example: 😂did I laugh hysterically? Out loud? Or did it make me smile with a chuckle? Maybe this emoji would have been more correct 😆or this one😄or 😊☺️😄😁. Now before you say it , I know there is a “dictionary” for emojis on the internet. In truth who has time and who really and truly has studied Emojis?
So why use Emojis if it leaves so much gray area regarding intent or description? Well, I’ve found that for me it can be a way to convey my feelings without too much having to be said. Problem? The person reading what I wrote with the emoji can misinterpret my meaning and the level of what I was feeling based on their own interpretation of the emoji used.
As someone who survived abuse as a child, expression of my feelings could not always be transparent and true! I learned early in life that what I felt had to be in agreement with my abuser, regardless of what I felt. I learned to make statements that said just enough to release some of my emotional pressure, but not get myself in trouble. I also learned to keep most of what I felt to myself.
As a survivor it’s tough to be honest about what you feel. Judgement is a great fear. Living through emotional judgement as a child causes you to expect it as an adult, and definitely influences what you say, how you say it and to whom you say it, every min of everyday!
It’s baby steps needed to be able to get to speak your truth. Misinterpretation is always a fear for those who experienced abuse. We wish to be understood 100% when we speak. But often that doesn’t happen because we still are speaking in code that we learned long ago during the abuse. The person who is listening often doesn’t know the code. So often when I’ve been misunderstood I retreat, as it feels too tiring to try to explain myself or even just get what I feel out. This is where Emojis for me come into play….
I post a lot on twitter, for many reasons, mainly cause it’s quick and I can get out my feelings and put them in the universe. I have found many who get me! Even through blogging I have found many who get me. Twitter is just a quicker way for me to say in short spurts what I need to and then continue on my day.
Emojis give me the ability to present what I mean, quick fast and it’s actually kind of colorful. Now here’s the great part for me… it’s not too much information being put out there but it releases my need to speak and with honestly according to how I feel it. Now, to other part of this is when others read it … most of the time I just get likes on the post. The person reading it may find a different meaning for them, and that’s ok, but they affirmed that I exist just by reading it and liking it. Do they have to know every detail? No. Do they have to get the deep message of the feeling that a particular emoji expresses for me? No. They just see me and for that post for that moment that’s enough for me. I spent most of my childhood being unseen. So a simple like on my twitter post really makes me smile because someone somewhere related in some way to my emoji post. If nothing else… they saw me and acknowledge me.
My blog is different, here I write in detail and I write my truth in all its pain and glory. Not holding back, but opening up like a surgery and exposing the vital organs, stitching up areas of injury, removing bad cells, medicating the pain, all on the road to recovery.
So for anyone who is just starting out in communicating your experience or just want to speak your experience without saying too much use your emojis😊
Here’s my yesterday in emojis:
Not to bad for a Monday ❤️🙏🏽
So how has your day been in emojis?