SURVIVING CHILD ABUSE

Tattoos – NO APOLOGY

I hope our relationship has room enough for this conversation. I don’t require your approval. Though I do ask that you respect my decisions.

My tattoos are not some “old fools” thing. My tattoos are me screaming. They are my validation. When I was a child being strangled, and beaten and scared beyond my understanding. I screamed and no one heard me. No one saved me – including you.

My tattoos are me screaming now. Screaming at the top of your lungs for hours, isn’t allowed as an adult- they would lock me up in a psych ward and throw away the key! So I choose to get tattoos. They represent my survival. Though they are hidden most of the time. Those rare moments when they are visible and someone says they are beautiful – it helps to validate my pain. The very pain that no one validated when I was a child. No one including you came to save me.

I will not apologize for how I’ve chosen to repair what she broke. My tattoos are a significant part of who I am and my journey. I love you Take care of your self.

10 thoughts on “Tattoos – NO APOLOGY

  1. Your tattoos are very beautiful.

    I have done the screaming at the top of my lungs thing. I got in my car, drove way out in the countryside, opened my sunroof, and screamed and screamed and screamed as loud and as long as I could, while I drove down an empty highway. All I got out of it was a very sore throat.

    Your tattoos are a better idea. 😊

    I am so, so sorry for the hell you have gone through. It was evil. Unconscionable. No child should ever go through that.

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    1. Awe thank you for the reblog! This is a true sign of support and I appreciate you thinking enough of my post to share with others! This really made my day as I have been struggling lately with so much. It made me smile to think someone else thought enough to share my story. Much love and God Bless 🙏🏽💕

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  2. I am deeply moved by how you chose to reclaim your power and honor your strength as a survivor of such immense abuse. I wanted to get a tattoo of a stylized flaming phoenix but I couldn’t decide where to put it – plus, I have a low pain threshold. Maybe one day I will have the courage to get it.

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    1. Thank you for your support and validation. Your idea for
      your tattoo sounds amazing. Yes getting a tattoo is uncomfortable. It wasn’t “painful” for me but then again I’ve experienced worse pain as a child. I will say that for me it was liberating to go thru being uncomfortable, to end up with something I feel is beautiful. Thank you again for your response and support. Much love 💕

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