I can bump my leg and never remember.
I can cut my arm and never remember.
I find a bruise and I don’t know how it got there.
I found scratch marks on my legs and don’t remember what happened.
I am preprogrammed to not to register pain…
Where did I learn this? I’m extremely good at it so I must have graduated at the top of my class.
I find a bruise. I have to think back . When? Where? Do i remember the pain when it happened? Often times the answer is no. I’ll have maybe a memory of bumping my leg or my toe. But it’s clouded and not quite clear. I blank out pain.
I graduated at the top of my class. I blank out pain.
Wish I had failed that class…
I think coping mechanisms learned early on to survive can impede things when older, but can be changed. Over time I am learning to connect with my body more, sometimes moments, sometimes longer.
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I agree that we can learn to connect over time… things can be changed. It’s a challenge though. I’m glad you responded… it’s given me something to think about 😊💕
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